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[Gnome]

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No matter how successful I become and despite being able to own most things I desire... there's still a void in my heart, in my soul I cannot seem to fill no matter how hard I try.

That's just how we as humans work. You can be content with life and all you have but there is always that desire to have more in order to fill that void.

 

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I am the happiest I have been in 3 years. From losing friends to suicide, horrible mishaps with the law, to break ups. I can finally say I am feeling normal again and looking forward to the future. I love my brother from a different mother and I know he's in a better place but the guilt of being the last one to talk to him before he went off the deep end has ate at me for so long. I miss him every day and plan on giving him his skateboard back to him on his birthday on April 4th. RIP lil bro.

[Liesa]

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I fear that no matter what major I pick after this year, my studies will be worthless if I don't get picked up by a graphic studio or publishing company.

[Oktober]

I borrow pens and never give them back. Yes I am that person.

[Salade]

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i feel so detached from everything. nothing feels real.

Edited by Loony, 24 March 2015 - 04:26 AM.

[NapisaurusRex]

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I love this thread because it fulfills my voyeuristic tendencies

[Rocket]

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sometimes I wish something bad would happen to me so I could die without having to actually kill myself... terminal cancer, brain tumor, fall down the stairs and break my neck, etc..

 

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i'm a hypocrite.. they say it gets better, but what's better about being completely numbed by drugs to stay alive?

[Alexiel]

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sometimes I wish something bad would happen to me so I could die without having to actually kill myself... terminal cancer, brain tumor, fall down the stairs and break my neck, etc..

 

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i'm a hypocrite.. they say it gets better, but what's better about being completely numbed by drugs to stay alive?

 

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I... often I've felt the same...

Praying to go quietly in my sleep...

Been contemplating taking some melatonin or something just to sleep as much of the day away as possible.

To live in my dreams, away from the hardships, bullshit, and pain...

Figure it's the next best thing...

But I'd have to wake up eventually...

Do it for the people I love if not for myself...

 

If you ever need someone to talk to, vent, rage, or anything else... my inbox is always open.

[Katya]

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sometimes I wish something bad would happen to me so I could die without having to actually kill myself... terminal cancer, brain tumor, fall down the stairs and break my neck, etc..

 

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I've thought about it so many times. I planned my perfect death more times that I can count. Every time I start doing something about it, I regret when I was too weak to let my husband make me fall in love with him. When, till this day, I don't have a fucking clue what's that thing. All I know is that for some damn miracle somewhere in the world there was this guy with the same darkened shields like I have. And it was perfect. It's perfect when I can bury all my fucking demons into someone else's soul without the fear of ruin him, because he's already ruined like me.

And yet, every time my body gets colder and I think this is finally it, I regret how many of those shields were lost forever, how many he teared them down, just so he could see the same shit in me he'd been living with is whole life.

 

Sometimes I think he did something to me, because I see the life I have with him, and I know it's not me. I never wanted this. And now my weakness is bond to the souls we brought to this world. He put a string on me, on my nonexistent soul. And because of that my blood will never abandon my body at my hands.

 

I hate him, because I might love him.

 

 

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I hate being this, me, body, soul, all the goods things others see, illusions, there's no good in here. I hate it, but I can't leave it just now because I'm no longer alone, and the pains we both inflict to ourselves are still the best lover we ever had.

I hope you'll read this, because my bruises are starting to fade.

 

 

I'm sick, someone should shoot me between the eyes.

[Liesa]

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sometimes I wish something bad would happen to me so I could die without having to actually kill myself... terminal cancer, brain tumor, fall down the stairs and break my neck, etc..

 

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i'm a hypocrite.. they say it gets better, but what's better about being completely numbed by drugs to stay alive?

 

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God I can't count the amount of times I am like this. Feel like it now actually. It should freak me out but when I drove to school today I realized if I crashed right then and there I wouldn't have minded one bit.

[Rocket]

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I've lost track of the amount of good-bye letters i've written.. but i've never actually done anything. I fear how my family would see me as a failure is the only reason I'm still here.

[Cyo]

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I'm a narcissist and I think it might be unfair for me to settle down with my significant other because I'll never love her as much as myself. But the sex is great, so that's neat.

[NapisaurusRex]

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sometimes I wish something bad would happen to me so I could die without having to actually kill myself... terminal cancer, brain tumor, fall down the stairs and break my neck, etc..

 

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i'm a hypocrite.. they say it gets better, but what's better about being completely numbed by drugs to stay alive?

I know these feelings too

[Adam]

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I'm a narcissist and I think it might be unfair for me to settle down with my significant other because I'll never love her as much as myself. But the sex is great, so that's neat.

#Kanye

[Swar]

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I've been feeling like shit for the last three months, since my grandma died. Everything I do reminds me of her, and we had a strong relationship, so it was really hard to move on. The last couple weeks have been much better. I'm finally able to do stuff that reminds me of her without crying or feeling awful. I'll always miss her, but now I can live without that pain. I've been more motivated to do stuff, especially studying. And she's one of the reasons I'm working harder. Whenever I'm feeling tired or lazy to study, I remember how much se motivated me to be a doctor, and that really helps.

[lll]

my favourite position

 

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is ceo

[Alexiel]

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A pill to make you numb

A pill to make you dumb

A pill to make you anybody else

All the drugs in this world

Won't save him from himself

 

You are from a perfect world

A world that threw me away today

 

 

 

Edited by AoKnight, 28 March 2015 - 02:33 PM.

[Katya]

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Some days are just a hell on earth. Everything rush back into my memory and I wish I could rip off my skin, cut it into tiny pieces and set it on fire, as if it's the source of all this shit, as if it's possible to do some good, make me feel some worth of every fucking breath I take.

[CaptainDantes]

 

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Some days are just a hell on earth. Everything rush back into my memory and I wish I could rip off my skin, cut it into tiny pieces and set it on fire, as if it's the source of all this shit, as if it's possible to do some good, make me feel some worth of every fucking breath I take.

 

 

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You matter to all of us here and I'm saddened to hear you feel like this. You are important, beautiful, and resourceful. If you need any support there are so many people who would love to help or just listen on this site. We all want you to be safe. It's not easy to deal with this on your own - I hope you know there are people here who care.

[Swar]

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Today was a completely waste of time. I did nothing but watch dumb videos the whole day lol

 

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I always imagine @Hydrogen as a robot.

[Eggie]

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I've been having trouble coming to terms with my sexuality since I was 13. I have no problem with the idea of being a lesbian, it's just...what if everybody thinks I'm some sort of fake? That I'm just saying so to get attention? What if I'm really straight, even though I noticed and fantasized about girls first (and pretty much only) and felt like I've had to force myself to feel anything in relationships with men so far? Is it too soon to come to this conclusion? I partially feel like I'm in denial, but I also partially feel like I have to "wait and see if things will change" even when they haven't in almost a decade. I don't even know.

[Swar]

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My Mondays are only good because of one specific person.

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I just watched Bad News again and I almost cried AGAIN. That episode is sad

[Rocket]

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I've been having trouble coming to terms with my sexuality since I was 13. I have no problem with the idea of being a lesbian, it's just...what if everybody thinks I'm some sort of fake? That I'm just saying so to get attention? What if I'm really straight, even though I noticed and fantasized about girls first (and pretty much only) and felt like I've had to force myself to feel anything in relationships with men so far? Is it too soon to come to this conclusion? I partially feel like I'm in denial, but I also partially feel like I have to "wait and see if things will change" even when they haven't in almost a decade. I don't even know.

 

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experiment a little, find out what you really like. be with a girl, try it out, if it feels right then who cares what other people think. if you like being with boys and girls, who cares what other people think. Do what feels right for you and try not to worry about the judgmental assholes of the world.

[Irradium]

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My Mondays are only good because of one specific person.

 

 

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I'm flirting with my new singer, and I'm really not sure if I should be. She's the only person I've met who's most like who I am (which, trust me, is extremely rare), but it still doesn't feel like I should be doing this... what if it gets in the way of the band? Am I even ready for another relationship? Is she even any good for me? What do I say to my ex, who is still interested in me?

Edited by Irradium, 30 March 2015 - 07:15 AM.

[Gnome]

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I'm flirting with my new singer, and I'm really not sure if I should be. She's the only person I've met who's most like who I am (which, trust me, is extremely rare), but it still doesn't feel like I should be doing this... what if it gets in the way of the band? Am I even ready for another relationship? Is she even any good for me? What do I say to my ex, who is still interested in me?

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Don't do it, not quite yet anyways. Give it awhile and if you both have a mutual connection after a couple months then go for it. Definitely talk to your band mates before hand. It's not your exes problem and they don't need an explanation. Sure she  might still be interested but you guys broke up for a reason, right? My two cents on the situation. Best of luck friend.

 

[Irradium]

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Don't do it, not quite yet anyways. Give it awhile and if you both have a mutual connection after a couple months then go for it. Definitely talk to your band mates before hand. It's not your exes problem and they don't need an explanation. Sure she  might still be interested but you guys broke up for a reason, right? My two cents on the situation. Best of luck friend.

 

 

Cheers man. Me and my 'ex' are really quite complicated, but I'll try and handle her as best I can.