For me, I'm normally 100% fine. Every few months I might have a really bad week, but it just means I'll sequester myself and not talk to anyone. Otherwise I'm usually fine and literally no one has any idea.
The only time that things become a problem is when something bad happens in my life. Then it almost completely overtakes me for a long long time. I still am able to have rational thought and experience joy, but for the large part it overshadows everything else I admit sometimes having suicidal thoughts. Not active suicidal thoughts, but just "if I died. I don't think I would care right now". The amount of "bad" for me to get to this point is variable, but rationally not nearly enough to provoke suicidal thoughts.
My apprhension is based on the fact that I literally will be limited in fields as a doctor with a diagnosis like this. Especially when I'm not sure if I even have it. I might just be very dramatic and handle situations super poorly. I just don't think suicidal thoughts are normal just because you fail an exam. But maybe it's just Asian guilt. Who knows. Either way, I doubt I'll be seeking help when it's so minor (relatively). As long as I don't have bad things happen in my life. Which is rare right? because life treats errryone great
@Kelvin yes I have plenty of friends where we don't talk about school. School is almost a 0% factor of me feeling down lately. I have amazing people in my life and when I'm sad. Talking to them really really helps. It's just worse when I'm alone (yet when I'm not going through anything, I love my alone time. But when I'm going through something, being alone is bad).